Weapon of choice.

Any person with the ability to think and create has a weapon of choice. Dictators have their armies, Musicians have their instruments, and I have a ball point pen. Seems like a strange choice given the wide and variable range of things I could choose to make my dreams come to life, but Im keeping it simple.
Today I tried something: I spent 3 hours in front of blank paper with 3 different pens. ( this is a world of threes, no?) I used a fine point free flow ink pen in black and blue, and then I tired an ole reliable stand by-the medium size ball point pen. sketching came fluently, and of the three drawings I completed today, it was my favorite. One of the better portraits that I have done in fact. Back when I still was in art classes, most of my thumbnails were done in ball point pen. There was something about the lines and the cohesion that only ever really showed up when I used my Papermate.
But it wasn't just while I was making art; when I sat down to do any writing ( which if you know anything about me, you know that is often) I usually have a pocket full of pens, pencils, and paint, but what I seem to find fits most comfortably in my hand is the generic black medium ball point. It is my soul mate, if someone could actually have a soulmate with a non-living object :). Some times things are just a fit. And when they come together, magic happens. creativity and expression comes with ease.
Anyone could chuck this up to luck or self delusion, ( really? a pen? How the hell does a PEN make a difference?) and I can't explain why it works that way, but it does. When someone feels like they are equiped to make something happen, there is no doubt, no hesitation, no reserve. They stand face to face with their canvas, or their audience, or their enemies, and they make their moves. That is how Im going to change to world.